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♥ ~All Songs~ » Jay Chou
♥ Replay » SHINee
♥ Love Should Go On » SHINee
♥ Real » SHINee
♥ In My Room » SHINee
♥ Stand Up People » CSJH The Grace
♥ Boomerang » CSJH The Grace
♥ My Everything » CSJH The Grace
♥ 5cm » CSJH The Grace
♥ I'll Kiss You » CSJH The Grace
♥ Sweet Flower » CSJH The Grace
♥ Forever Love » DBSK
♥ Step by Step » DBSK
♥ Rising Sun » DBSK
♥ O » DBSK
♥ Yesterday » Leona Lewis
♥ I Know you Won't » Carrie Underwood
♥ It's Not Over » Daughtry
♥ Behind These Hazel Eyes » Kelly Clarkson
♥ Find my Way Back » Michelle Branch
♥ Over It » Katharine McPhee
Replay~ Singing~
The Hidden Me, In My Room
» The name Sylvester
» Known as SlyFantasx
» 18 should age count
» A student & Emoist & Listener
» Love Singing & Dancing
» Hate
» Enjoy Crapping & Joking
» I ♥ Talents
» Admire ♥KEY, ♥Jonghyun, ♥Minho, ♥Onew
My Everything
♥ Besties
♥ Family
♥ KEY ~ SHINee
♥ Jonghyun ~ SHINee
♥ DBSK
♥ CSJH The Grace
♥ SHINee
♥ BoA
♥ Super Junior
♥ UVERworld
♥ Ayaka
♥ Jay Chou
♥ Britney Spears
♥ Gong Yoo
♥ Carrie Underwood
♥ Kelly Clarkson
♥ Daughtry
♥ Leona Lewis
♥ Katharine McPhee
♥ Michelle Branch
wishlist
♣ CSJH The Grace Singles
♣ CSJH The Grace Vol 1
♣ DBSK 4th japanese Album
♣ Super Junior Singles
♣ Super Junior Albums
♣ BoA Singles
♣ BoA Albums
♣ UVERworld Singles
♣ UVERworld Albums
♣ Ayaka Albums
Love Should go On
Yesterday
Forever Love
--» Alvin
--» Arthur
--» ♥Lydia
thanks a lot
Layout » Chazzie
110808 Lost inside a vortex.
I'm feeling really lost and mood less. Nothing could really express how this feeling feels. A best scenario, like a guy who lost all his senses. I'm feeling very lost and helpless, i can't do anything now. I feel useless and stupid. Why can't i just carry on with life? Time is wasting. I know, what else can i do instead of staring at my colorless laptop. Fight on? I have been fighting for the past years. Goals? I have accomplished a few but many abandoned like a lost puppy. Maybe I'm not pushing myself hard enough. To me i had really tried my best. Ha don't kid yourself. You didn't really placed in much efforts. I wanna fight on but I'm just too tired. I'm not good at anything, or rather good at things which i would rather be bad at. Why can't i choose the talents that i want? Never before feeling more lost and down. None of these emotions that I'm placing out is expressing how i really feel. Somewhere there but not quite. I hate this feeling. I wish i could slice it off with a chainsaw or jab it with a spear.
I found my purpose in life but am too tired to fight on. Loser? Quitter? Heard it countless times, said it myself countless times, condemn myself with it countless times. Nothing works. I am blessed with many things, things i took for granted for, but i still want those that i dream of obtaining. selfish? greedy? Ungrateful? I guess. Wanna have some strength to fight on, but i can draw no source of energy from nowhere, no one and nobody. I'm plunging myself a step closer to devil's will, suicide. You would see me doing it eventually? Still waiting for something to pull me out of this vortex of doom.
KEY, save me? Ha, you can't even hear me. Correction, you don't even know who the hell i am. Never mind, even if I'm being silly. All the best in all you do yea? I will support you till the end even if in the end you don't even have a clue who am i. Doesn't matter. Your totally living the dream that i have long for. Its important that you treasure it and make sure you don't end up like some stuck up asshole in the entertainment industry. I know you would never in a million years able to see this post i had for you. But just know i will always support and cheer you on. :] Doesn't matter if i suffer, I'm used to it. Be good in SHINee, and yar take good care of your health. Be the best human you can possibly be. Hwaiting! This is only to KEY so to other people who are reading this section, pay no mind to it. KEY, hope you eventually get to see this unsignificant message. Maybe it will be significant to you, only you can decide, no one else can.
To people who thinks i'm a freak after seeing the above section, let it be. I don't care anymore. I don't need a public and private blog at the same time to hide my true emotions in the private blog itself. If you want to know who the hell am i then this is the place for you. I don't really find a need to hide my true emotions.
I found my purpose in life but am too tired to fight on. Loser? Quitter? Heard it countless times, said it myself countless times, condemn myself with it countless times. Nothing works. I am blessed with many things, things i took for granted for, but i still want those that i dream of obtaining. selfish? greedy? Ungrateful? I guess. Wanna have some strength to fight on, but i can draw no source of energy from nowhere, no one and nobody. I'm plunging myself a step closer to devil's will, suicide. You would see me doing it eventually? Still waiting for something to pull me out of this vortex of doom.
KEY, save me? Ha, you can't even hear me. Correction, you don't even know who the hell i am. Never mind, even if I'm being silly. All the best in all you do yea? I will support you till the end even if in the end you don't even have a clue who am i. Doesn't matter. Your totally living the dream that i have long for. Its important that you treasure it and make sure you don't end up like some stuck up asshole in the entertainment industry. I know you would never in a million years able to see this post i had for you. But just know i will always support and cheer you on. :] Doesn't matter if i suffer, I'm used to it. Be good in SHINee, and yar take good care of your health. Be the best human you can possibly be. Hwaiting! This is only to KEY so to other people who are reading this section, pay no mind to it. KEY, hope you eventually get to see this unsignificant message. Maybe it will be significant to you, only you can decide, no one else can.
To people who thinks i'm a freak after seeing the above section, let it be. I don't care anymore. I don't need a public and private blog at the same time to hide my true emotions in the private blog itself. If you want to know who the hell am i then this is the place for you. I don't really find a need to hide my true emotions.
Loving my KEY Dongsaeng
SlyFantasx
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